[Jyn shook her head weakly as Cassian took the floor in front of her, but there was probably no convincing him not to. She flexed her fingers painfully as she worked to regain her composure, a large part of her wanting nothing more than to reach out and touch - not only to reassure herself, but to do the same for him as well.
However difficult, she refrained. And as he explained further, or tried to, she managed to mostly quell the hard, fast beating of her heart, and to battle to keep those tears from falling. It would do her no good to get that emotional when none of this was supposed to have been about her.
But then he asserted that he wanted her to have a choice, and when's the last time he had been granted that? Maybe she had never been given an opportunity to make a real choice rather than only ever doing what it took in order to survive.]
I may not know everything you've done, but I know who you are, Cassian. You came back for me over and over again, when you could have easily just given up on me. You believed me when you didn't have to. You almost died for me.
[She turned her hand over, palm up, inviting Cassian to take it or touch it if he felt like doing so.]
I trust you. I wouldn't be here right now if I didn't. I wouldn't have stayed if I didn't think that there was a place here for me, or ... a reason to stay. Nobody is forcing me anymore, least of all you.
[She sighed shakily, but didn't drop her eyes away from his.]
I can't give you absolution, but I can give you understanding. I've - I've done things that I'm not proud of, I've done things that still eat me up inside - things no dossier can tell you. And I feel ... if it was important for you to tell me these things about you ... then I should probably do the same.
Because - you deserve the opportunity to figure out if I'm worth being with as well.
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oh, don't be, i loved it <3
Date: 2019-06-28 07:54 am (UTC)However difficult, she refrained. And as he explained further, or tried to, she managed to mostly quell the hard, fast beating of her heart, and to battle to keep those tears from falling. It would do her no good to get that emotional when none of this was supposed to have been about her.
But then he asserted that he wanted her to have a choice, and when's the last time he had been granted that? Maybe she had never been given an opportunity to make a real choice rather than only ever doing what it took in order to survive.]
I may not know everything you've done, but I know who you are, Cassian. You came back for me over and over again, when you could have easily just given up on me. You believed me when you didn't have to. You almost died for me.
[She turned her hand over, palm up, inviting Cassian to take it or touch it if he felt like doing so.]
I trust you. I wouldn't be here right now if I didn't. I wouldn't have stayed if I didn't think that there was a place here for me, or ... a reason to stay. Nobody is forcing me anymore, least of all you.
[She sighed shakily, but didn't drop her eyes away from his.]
I can't give you absolution, but I can give you understanding. I've - I've done things that I'm not proud of, I've done things that still eat me up inside - things no dossier can tell you. And I feel ... if it was important for you to tell me these things about you ... then I should probably do the same.
Because - you deserve the opportunity to figure out if I'm worth being with as well.