[For as much as she wanted to lean into the touch, she tried to keep as still as possible in order to let Cassian do what he was comfortable with, hoping that her reactions weren't influencing him into doing what he thought she wanted, especially if he wasn't yet ready for those same things.
She could be patient in this. She could take one step at a time by his side, not leading ahead, not pushing behind. They would get there together or not at all.
His arm curled around her, and Jyn easily followed suit as Cassian urged her all the closer still, every inch of them touching from shoulder to thigh. If all they did was lie down together and entangle limbs until it was difficult to tell where one ended and the other began, she'd be perfectly content to do so. If they did more, she would be just as happy.
She welcomed him as he leaned his forehead against her, quiet and calm, waiting to hear what he would say, what he was thinking or feeling, what he wanted or what he didn't.
Her heart was so full of Cassian, but it still twisted painfully for him, too, the thought that he had never been granted a choice in something that was at it's core about choices - I am choosing to be with you, we are choosing to take this step together - the knowledge that he didn't know what to do with himself or even what was right now that he was being given the freedom to choose.
Jyn exhaled, slowly and steadily.]
So ... forget what you know - [she breathed, reaching out to place her palm to his chest, right above his heart] - Listen to what you feel instead.
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Date: 2019-09-05 09:17 pm (UTC)She could be patient in this. She could take one step at a time by his side, not leading ahead, not pushing behind. They would get there together or not at all.
His arm curled around her, and Jyn easily followed suit as Cassian urged her all the closer still, every inch of them touching from shoulder to thigh. If all they did was lie down together and entangle limbs until it was difficult to tell where one ended and the other began, she'd be perfectly content to do so. If they did more, she would be just as happy.
She welcomed him as he leaned his forehead against her, quiet and calm, waiting to hear what he would say, what he was thinking or feeling, what he wanted or what he didn't.
Her heart was so full of Cassian, but it still twisted painfully for him, too, the thought that he had never been granted a choice in something that was at it's core about choices - I am choosing to be with you, we are choosing to take this step together - the knowledge that he didn't know what to do with himself or even what was right now that he was being given the freedom to choose.
Jyn exhaled, slowly and steadily.]
So ... forget what you know - [she breathed, reaching out to place her palm to his chest, right above his heart] - Listen to what you feel instead.