[Making a real, true connection was the difficult part. And Jyn had thought that she had found one with Cassian - despite their less-than-stellar beginnings. Putting a voice to her own wants and desires seemed an impossible task, especially because she couldn't be sure of how he felt or what he wanted in return.
Forever doomed to orbit each other and never meet, it seemed. And while it was a very particular form of torture, Jyn thought perhaps she could withstand it, if only to be in his presence as long as possible.
To work together and fight together, to watch over each other and be by each other's sides. I can be a partner, she thought, I can even be a friend.
But, oh, how I want so much more with you.
She wasn't embarrassed at having shown Cassian the affection. The embarrassment stemmed from being caught while doing so. He hadn't asked her for it, and it seemed incredibly presumptuous of her to have taken without being granted the permission.
But Cassian showed no signs of discomfort and instead caught the hand she'd been retracting back to her side - caught it and kissed it as if he had somehow known the turmoil in her mind and wanted to calm it, all without saying a word.
And then, after all of that, he didn't let go. Jyn gently curled her fingers around his, grateful for the steadiness he offered.
Okay, she thought, okay.]
Hurts. [The first question was easy. The second, a little harder to articulate. You? To be safe? To come back to me? She couldn't say any of those things, lest she run the risk of running Cassian off completely.
That was not what they were. They were partners and friends, nothing more.] What's the verdict? Am I gonna make it?
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Date: 2019-11-04 08:07 pm (UTC)Forever doomed to orbit each other and never meet, it seemed. And while it was a very particular form of torture, Jyn thought perhaps she could withstand it, if only to be in his presence as long as possible.
To work together and fight together, to watch over each other and be by each other's sides. I can be a partner, she thought, I can even be a friend.
But, oh, how I want so much more with you.
She wasn't embarrassed at having shown Cassian the affection. The embarrassment stemmed from being caught while doing so. He hadn't asked her for it, and it seemed incredibly presumptuous of her to have taken without being granted the permission.
But Cassian showed no signs of discomfort and instead caught the hand she'd been retracting back to her side - caught it and kissed it as if he had somehow known the turmoil in her mind and wanted to calm it, all without saying a word.
And then, after all of that, he didn't let go. Jyn gently curled her fingers around his, grateful for the steadiness he offered.
Okay, she thought, okay.]
Hurts. [The first question was easy. The second, a little harder to articulate. You? To be safe? To come back to me? She couldn't say any of those things, lest she run the risk of running Cassian off completely.
That was not what they were. They were partners and friends, nothing more.] What's the verdict? Am I gonna make it?
[You saved me. You keep saving me.]