I think we would both be underestimating the enormity of it if we weren't both a little scared. It's an unknown that we've never stepped foot into. But I think that as long as we're together - as long as we communicate, we'll manage.
I want to share everything with you, even the things I never thought that I'd have for myself. Even the things that scare me. Maybe it won't be perfect, but it will be ours, and that will be enough.
I know the feeling. But I'll share my strength when you need it, and you can share yours when I do. Until then, we keep fighting. We'll get there, I believe that.
We must hold onto something, and that's what I choose to hold on to, especially on the days that it's hard to find anything good. It's well worth fighting for - you, and us, and that future.
I guess we do. It still feels strange, you know. I used to try my hardest never to make any plans beyond the next mission. Not to get attached so I won't leave anyone behind to mourn.
Keeping to myself was easier than the thought of leaving someone behind. Not coming back is still a very real possibility, I know that, but I want to believe that there's something for us beyond all of this.
I'm scared. I'm really scared. But I'm holding onto that hope anyway.
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Date: 2018-07-03 04:31 pm (UTC)I want to share everything with you, even the things I never thought that I'd have for myself. Even the things that scare me. Maybe it won't be perfect, but it will be ours, and that will be enough.
I know the feeling. But I'll share my strength when you need it, and you can share yours when I do. Until then, we keep fighting. We'll get there, I believe that.
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Date: 2018-07-08 02:58 pm (UTC)I'm not a very optimistic man by nature. But you make me want to be an optimist.
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Date: 2018-07-09 05:50 am (UTC)I feel the same. We'll get there, you and I.
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Date: 2018-07-21 02:47 pm (UTC)Even if it takes years yet. I mean, realistically speaking, it will take years. But some things are worth the wait.
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Date: 2018-07-22 02:22 pm (UTC)Good thing, then, that we've got many of those in front of us yet. Good ones. Happy ones. And we'll get there, Cassian, no matter what it takes.
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Date: 2018-07-29 05:30 pm (UTC)And now...
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Date: 2018-07-31 03:41 pm (UTC)Keeping to myself was easier than the thought of leaving someone behind. Not coming back is still a very real possibility, I know that, but I want to believe that there's something for us beyond all of this.
I'm scared. I'm really scared. But I'm holding onto that hope anyway.
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Date: 2018-08-11 11:54 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2018-08-11 04:52 pm (UTC)