You don't need to thank me for the time with your father, Jyn. I only wish everything had gone differently on that planet, and you wouldn't have had to watch him die.
No, I couldn't love someone who doesn't care if they are murdering people, or who takes joy in it. And I think if someone has come to the point where life doesn't matter anymore, where it doesn't feel wrong anymore, that's the point where they can't love anymore either. Or maybe they can. I don't know. But I wouldn't want to be anywhere near them.
Some things should hurt. I'm glad that it gets easier, but never easy.
I do, because I know what your orders were. And because you didn't follow them, I got a chance to say goodbye. And you should know how grateful I am for that, even if I said that you were no better than - well. You know what I said.
I hope you know that I didn't mean any of it. I was angry and I was grieving, and I know that you are a good man.
I feel the same - I need to know that anyone I give my heart to still has one to give to me in return. I need to know that they're still capable of feeling, that they know what's right and wrong and won't behave like some mindless zombie just because they're told to ...
I need to know that they still feel ... the good, and the bad, and the in between.
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Date: 2017-03-13 12:27 am (UTC)No, I couldn't love someone who doesn't care if they are murdering people, or who takes joy in it. And I think if someone has come to the point where life doesn't matter anymore, where it doesn't feel wrong anymore, that's the point where they can't love anymore either. Or maybe they can. I don't know. But I wouldn't want to be anywhere near them.
Some things should hurt. I'm glad that it gets easier, but never easy.
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Date: 2017-03-20 07:53 am (UTC)I hope you know that I didn't mean any of it. I was angry and I was grieving, and I know that you are a good man.
I feel the same - I need to know that anyone I give my heart to still has one to give to me in return. I need to know that they're still capable of feeling, that they know what's right and wrong and won't behave like some mindless zombie just because they're told to ...
I need to know that they still feel ... the good, and the bad, and the in between.