TFLN & Overflow

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[made_of_stars]

"Oh!", she breathed, her tentative smile widening just a touch. That was not the news that she was expecting to hear, if she was really expecting anything at all rather than dreading it. She'd become accustomed to and spoiled by the sheer amount of time they've been able to spend together while Cassian was recovering. Couldn't last forever, after all, with so much still to be done. She knew that Kay could never be replaced, but this could be a good thing. "How do you feel about that?"

[alltheway]

"I'm not sure," he said, his answer slow and deliberate. If Draven was already pairing him up with a droid, it wouldn't be long until Cassian had to leave to go on assignments. He didn't want to leave Jyn's side yet - if ever.

[made_of_stars]

It was only a matter of time - they both knew that, no matter how much Jyn tried to ignore the inevitable. But it would still take some time to reprogram the droids, so there was that. "Yeah, me neither."

[alltheway]

"Mmm," he said in response to her statement. He went and sat on the edge of the bed so he could take off his boots, thinking all the while. "When you were a child, what did you want to be when you grew up?"

[made_of_stars]

Jyn toed hers off, as well, more than ready to take a little break and to get a little more comfortable. It was a good question, and one she didn't really know how to answer. "I suppose I never thought much about it, really. I did help my mother and father with their work, when I could, so I think I thought I'd follow in their footsteps. What about you?"

[alltheway]

"I don't know," he said, lying back on their bed and looking up at the ceiling. The future seemed so uncertain when he was a child. It was so hard for him to grasp that he would grow into an adult who would eventually have to choose a path to take. "I don't know. I wanted to make this galaxy a better place."

[made_of_stars]

She soon follows suit, quiet as she curls up close to his side, automatically reaching for his hand, always happy to thread their fingers together in order to be close. "Do you feel as if you've managed to do that - even just a little?"

[alltheway]

"Maybe a little," he said and then he chuckled but there wasn't any warmth behind it. "I imagined myself being a hero...not - not gathering intel from sources in back alleys and underground rooms." He looked over at her.

[made_of_stars]

It's a familiar sound if only because she's made the same one more than occasion. "Why do you think that you're not a hero? Look at what we did on Scarif. If that isn't heroic, I don't know what is." She knew that he meant the things he'd done previously - and might be called upon to do again. "You're my hero."

[alltheway]

He smiled at her almost sadly when she called him her hero. He'd never heard such kinder words from anyone before. Unlike X-Wing pilots, his heroism wasn't visible. He didn't have a flashy uniform or a team. It was only himself.

[made_of_stars]

Maybe that was part of the problem; that he couldn't be recognized for many of his actions. But here in the quiet, Jyn could - and it might not make much of a difference, but she'd do it anyway, if it helped if even just a little. "Couldn't have gotten the plans out without you. I wouldn't be here without you. Cassian ... you do know what you mean to me, don't you?"

[alltheway]

He didn't do it for the acknowledgment or praise - he did everything that was asked of him by the Alliance because he thought it was right - the right thing to do. He justified all the deaths caused by his hand - all the assignments given to him - He justified everything that made him questioned the Alliance's morality because it was the right thing to do. "I do." He did - at least he thought he did.

[made_of_stars]

Right didn't mean easy, and it certainly didn't always mean totally moral. But they did what was necessary to get the job done. But even then, just knowing that his efforts were appreciated could go a long way toward ... keeping up morale. Especially now. "You're my everything."

[alltheway]

He smiled at her, resting his hand on the side of her face, looking at her endearingly. "You're mine." He leaned in and kissed her soundly.

[made_of_stars]

"I am", she answered, returning the smile. "And you're mine". And then, if Jyn had anything else to say (and she probably did), it was lost in the moment that their lips met, and her eyes fluttered shut, and she took the opportunity to fully enjoy just being together.

[alltheway]

Despite both of them having a hard exterior with walls built high around them, Jyn has made him soft and gentle and it wasn't a bad thing at all. This is the first time he's ever experienced such tenderness with another person.

When he broke the kiss after a few seconds, he opened his eyes and kissed her forehead. "Thank you."

[made_of_stars]

He's helped her accept and embrace that part of herself, too, and she's learned not to fight against it or be afraid of it like she'd been used to. Now, between the two of them, it felt as natural as breathing.

She hummed softly, slow to open her eyes to take him in. "Did I help?"

[alltheway]

"Yes, absolutely," he said and then just to drive his point home, he pressed kisses to her face to her face, anywhere he could reach.

[made_of_stars]

Well, Jyn couldn't really question the veracity of the kisses more than she could laugh helplessly as she received them - not that she was in any mood to deny him the pleasure of sharing them.

[alltheway]

He stopped after a few seconds, laughing, and wrapped his arms around her.

[made_of_stars]

It was moments like these that Jyn allowed herself to believe, however momentarily, that things were going to be okay. Because the thought of not having this was almost too much to bear. "What now, Captain? Take a nap while we can?"

[alltheway]

"Might as well, they probably went me to work on the droids through the afternoon and into the evening," he said. He wouldn't be surprised if he worked into the next morning.

[made_of_stars]

"Then a few hours of rest will do you good. And, if you want some assistance, you've got me. It's not like I had anything more pressing to do tonight, anyway." That, and she'd learned the hard way that it was beginning to sleep alone now.

[alltheway]

He smiled and kissed her lips one last time before he got up and stripped down to his boxer briefs and undershirt.

[made_of_stars]

If she was a little slower to get undressed, surely it was understandable - as it so happens, Jyn really liked to watch, and now was no exception. But eventually, she was as prepared to get some rest as she was ever going to be.